Now that you’re gone

Now that you’re gone, I think back..

 

I realize how wrong I must have been to leave You all alone,

How much sorrow, how much pain, how much loneliness I must have brought upon You..
the one I truly loved.. my own

There is no justification for what I did but I seem to know the reason now

So bereft of love was I, that at the slightest sighting,

I flew.. with all my might

All of it felt like a dream, happy and beautiful,

I was lost in a new world, a world full of love and all things good

I cared little of what I had left behind,

I thought seldom of how You must truly feel my loss

I was gloating in my dream, feeling complete at last

I got so much love and gave so much love.. sometimes more than desired

I lost myself so many times, without realizing my own loss

Nevertheless,

 

Dreams are but dreams, they come to an end.

Now that I awake from this long slumber, I realize how trapped I am still.

 

I wish I could turn back times and stay with You some more time,

Sharing the same laughter, cracking the same jokes,

Enjoying the same food..

I wish I had lived a little longer with You..

 

Today, I face a similar loss.. and try to imagine how You must have felt when I left You.. all alone

It makes me so sad and weary

I curse every speck of me that was ever angry with You,

I repent every moment that I spent fighting with You.

I must’ve been crazy for doing all that

 

For You loved me truly

I know now..

That all You said was to save me from this trap I lie in today

You tried to caution me,

I paid no heed

And here I am today, trapped in my very dream

 

You must’ve shed some tears,

You must’ve missed a friend,

It must have been all lonely..

 

I was so wrong and selfish.

But in the end, I paid.

 

Coz’ I did forget to mention

That in the dream I lay,

I fell many a times,

and have a scar or two, good to last a lifetime.

 

All I’d like to say today,

I am sorry, please forgive me..

 

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