Now that you’re gone, I think
back..
I realize how wrong I must have been to leave You all alone,
How much sorrow, how much pain, how much loneliness I must have brought upon
You..
the one I truly loved.. my own
There is no justification for what I did but I seem to know the reason
now
So bereft of love was I, that
at the slightest sighting,
I flew.. with all my might
All of it felt like a dream, happy and beautiful,
I was lost in a new world, a world full of love and all things good
I cared little of what I had left behind,
I thought seldom of how You must truly feel my loss
I was gloating in my dream, feeling complete at last
I got so much love and gave so much love.. sometimes more
than desired
I lost myself so many times, without realizing my own loss
Nevertheless,
Dreams are but dreams, they come
to an end.
Now that I awake from this long slumber, I realize how trapped I am still.
I wish I could turn back times and stay with You some more time,
Sharing the same laughter, cracking the same jokes,
Enjoying the same food..
I wish I had lived a little
longer with You..
Today, I face a similar loss.. and try to imagine how You must have
felt when I left You.. all alone
It makes me so sad and weary
I curse every speck of me that was ever angry with You,
I repent every moment that I spent fighting with You.
I must’ve been crazy for doing all that
For You loved me truly
I know now..
That all You said was to save me
from this trap I lie in today
You tried to caution me,
I paid no heed
And here I am today, trapped in
my very dream
You must’ve shed some tears,
You must’ve missed a friend,
It must have been all lonely..
I was so wrong and selfish.
But in the end, I paid.
Coz’ I did forget to mention
That in the dream I lay,
I fell many a times,
and have a scar or two, good to last a lifetime.
All I’d like to say today,
I am sorry, please forgive me..
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